The heavy thumping is done.
I could be hurting so bad, but I don't wanna hurt no more.
Don't wanna fuck with that part of me anymore.
It's weird trying to grab at thin air, so I stopped.
With the juxtaposition of your vague disposition and passionate moments to think back to, I see the only way to win my heart is to make me trust you all the way--not so fast. I couldn't even know how much I was holding back (until now), but disappointment gets old after a while. Think my heart is in a cocoon, or coma.
She says she loves you. But she ain't in love with you. You're unreliable, a heartthrob, a sinner, a sweet talker. That's fine, cause she ain't perfect. But she's no fool. And on the inside I'm sure her soul cries at night. Her blank face is tired. But when she dreams she knows just the way she likes it. Pure. Free of indiscrepancy. Finite tears exist under the circumstance. She's got peace that transcends deeper than where all aching (bullshit) can reach. In her last kiss she says she's simply letting go. Master jester watch the crepuscular memories crumble in her hands.
9.6.09
3.6.09
A continued work in progress
*deep sigh*
It seems I never have enough time to rant anymore.
It has to be scheduled in between my delectable pancake, sausage, and fruit salad breakfast.
Which may indeed reduce breakfast to pancakes and fruit salad....
O how I love meat. Heh heh.
Read a couple entries back. It's always funny to reflect.
But really, I am changing. Relaxing. Developing a confidence I didn't think would ever exist. As I stride down the streets by myself or with friends I recognize my ability to create impressions, to be beautiful, to walk into another's life. I'm creating new friendships. New ventures. I'm okay with the new found relationship too...
Yeah, a couple months ago there was no one in mind, except I said I could see myself talking to a black guy, but not a poser wanna-be skater boy who's "hood" with no concept of what skating is. Probably someone who's got charisma, intelligence, and is going somewhere. Just maybe the power of thought is more powerful than anything, because sure enough he found his way to me...
This summer I want to accomplish a hell of a lot. In no particular order.
1. TO SWIM--knowing how.
2. ENVIRONMENTAL SCIENCE DEVELOPMENT--next college, involvement in organizations, networking with environmentalists
3. THE SMOKERY--work, internships, learning culinary techniques
4. RELATIONSHIPS--building my friendships up, my love life, my whole network of people actually...
5. YOGA!!!--wanna do it....stay limber.
6.PAINT--my room...I need to draw a design. Right now I have ideas...I just need a friend who can really help me execute them...
7. EXPERIMENT--New foods, new places on adventures, new people. Nouveau new.
8. SPEED READ--a book a month. Seriously.
9. PARKOURRRRRRRR XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD--practice. climb. jump. fall safetly. basics.
Thatt's about all for now. I must depart and get ready for work.
It helps to plan out what you want. You are more likely to achieve it. Or at least, it works for me.
It seems I never have enough time to rant anymore.
It has to be scheduled in between my delectable pancake, sausage, and fruit salad breakfast.
Which may indeed reduce breakfast to pancakes and fruit salad....
O how I love meat. Heh heh.
Read a couple entries back. It's always funny to reflect.
But really, I am changing. Relaxing. Developing a confidence I didn't think would ever exist. As I stride down the streets by myself or with friends I recognize my ability to create impressions, to be beautiful, to walk into another's life. I'm creating new friendships. New ventures. I'm okay with the new found relationship too...
Yeah, a couple months ago there was no one in mind, except I said I could see myself talking to a black guy, but not a poser wanna-be skater boy who's "hood" with no concept of what skating is. Probably someone who's got charisma, intelligence, and is going somewhere. Just maybe the power of thought is more powerful than anything, because sure enough he found his way to me...
This summer I want to accomplish a hell of a lot. In no particular order.
1. TO SWIM--knowing how.
2. ENVIRONMENTAL SCIENCE DEVELOPMENT--next college, involvement in organizations, networking with environmentalists
3. THE SMOKERY--work, internships, learning culinary techniques
4. RELATIONSHIPS--building my friendships up, my love life, my whole network of people actually...
5. YOGA!!!--wanna do it....stay limber.
6.PAINT--my room...I need to draw a design. Right now I have ideas...I just need a friend who can really help me execute them...
7. EXPERIMENT--New foods, new places on adventures, new people. Nouveau new.
8. SPEED READ--a book a month. Seriously.
9. PARKOURRRRRRRR XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD--practice. climb. jump. fall safetly. basics.
Thatt's about all for now. I must depart and get ready for work.
It helps to plan out what you want. You are more likely to achieve it. Or at least, it works for me.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
