Silhouette

There's a shadow standing next to me.
A void of what I feel should be.
It consistently taunts me.
God, won't you tell me what is wrong with me?
I have so much love, and yet it stays repressed.

I can't even smile the same these days.
Because in the back of this mind, peace is missing.
Solace to be had.

This is the first time in my life where the door stays cracked and won't open.
Do I have baggage?
Or is it the guys I go for?
I don't know what to think anymore.

My evenings were spent thinking of ways to fix this.
I wish I hadn't wasted my time.
It could've been so much better than this.

You don't seem to realize what you just did.

So yet again, I walk.
Far away.
Refusing to share the heaviness on my heart.
Just accepting the facts.

Maybe I'm just not meant to.
. . .