Inspiration.

This is Ryan Gosling and Rachel McAdams (making out hardcore).
You know...from le film The Notebook?
Well...just got finished watching it.
And...
They're really together.
Spellbinding.

Is love to me really as simple as breathing?
I aspire to have something so deep.
*sigh*

Well anyway, I'm really here to leave you with a quote.
"The best love is the kind that weakens the soul-- the kind that brings fire to our hearts and peace to our minds."
-Noah, The Notebook


Entitled: The Hope[FULL] Romantic

Slowly peeling away the old skin.
I hope he's long gone.
It's time to grow up and time to move on.
I've found something new,
Yet old and this time I'm sure of what I hold.
Escape is not necessary.
And I am not running, not repeating, not regretting.
This is where that road ends, and a new one beg[a]n.

"It's that kind that I have for you, and the kind I hope to bring to you, forever..."-N.B.

I won't take this moment for granted

It's not cutting the fabric today.
All I've got to say is I have goals.
Currently all very immediate.
Like this shirt.
License tomorrow.
Relationship clarity soon -_-.
Getting a job.
Saving and NOT spending.

Just need to break this shell.
This thick, overbearing coat of childhood.
Still smelling coffee.

Serenity, solace, and peace of mind.
Think I'll go meditate.

My Heart's Desire.

So this is life...and I'm glad for it.
2008 is over, hence the dawn of a new chapter...
I guess.

The beginning
-->Spent with Shay and Dean really. Lol he was definitely there at midnight in spirit. <3
But on this day I realize so much. The little things I once wrapped my mind around are no longer important. I'm not interested, nor do I dwell on silly things. One thing I will give the psychic s that I have over analyzed. I need to let go more. Enjoy each moment, but not dissect it. Peace of highest importance in my life.

I have a moment to share.

Here I am on the bus stop, toes frost bitten. I just left Shayla.
Waiting. Wondering. There I realized this is life. I'm waking up.
This is your life. Take control. Stop letting things happen to you.
Ask questions. Get on the next damn bus. Lol. You'll get home.

Then I wander around trying to find a place to piss in the middle of the city...on New Years...
End up calling home. I ask for a ride. Freezing my f***ing toes off....
My dad doesn't want a damn thing to do with helping me.
He's rude...but I guess he had a point.
I found a cozy Nepalese/Indian restaurant.
This feels so relaxing.
I ordered alone. Waited for my folks.
They arrive. I grab my amazing dumplings and leave.
Minutes later...
"You need to act like you're 18. Take on your own cell phone bill. Do some shit for yourself.
Get a real job. And find your own way home. I ain't gonna be doing this shit for you for the rest of your life. I won't be there. "
I'm a daddy's girl. And sensitive. Guess on the inside my heart kinda broke again...
I know better. And I want to leave here badly...
Lol guess that's motivation.




My goal, my destination this year is to reach far beyond the minimal.
Don't just take what is handed to you. Go after what you want. Make life happen. Don't hold your feelings in. Spread the love. Kiss deeper. Laugh louder. Play harder. Release everything. Change is what makes life, life. Remember, guys will be there. Make TIME for what your really want. Remember temptation. Enjoy youth, but never act foolishly. Make each moment count. Passionately. Intensely. Always reflect.

I love you more than ever. I love myself more than ever. I am more beautiful than I ever was.
Wisdom is sexy. Spirituality is sexy. Carpe diem is my true fetish. Hence each day is better than the day before it.
FIN.