Single does it.

Screw the whole couple shindig.

I only want to be with you if you make the cut. I'm in no rush. As a matter of fact this is the FIRST TIME in my life I can say I'm not lonely. Never again to be with a drag, a hindrance, a hypocrite. I want someone who meets my unique standards. I could go all into that but why? I'm getting older. When my family members asked if I had a boyfriend or what type of wife I will make all I can do is mumble under my breath or a quick, "Oh I'm not talking to anyone."
This is my youth. I should be having the time of my life. And I think it's more than time to get that ball rolling. I want everyday I wake to be a new enjoyable adrenaline rushing mentally and physically stimulating experience.
No need to get involved with anyone in particular. But my eyes and heart are open.

Just learning how to deal with the aching moments of sexual tension. ^.^ Oh yes. I'm soooo glad that's finally calming down.

Guess somewhere deep down I'm done with heartache. It's time to grow up. :DDD

"This is LIFE, and it's sort of all we have."

So I watched this movie Garden State by Zach Braff. If you enjoy a quirky love story this one's for you. So touched when I saw it.
But here are some truths in the matters of living:

Pain is a reality sometimes, but without it how would you know you were living?
When you close yourself off from the very thing that is showing you something's not right, YOU AREN'T LIVING.

Don't be afraid to take a chance. Don't get mad when things don't go "as planned".
Don't regret. Don't over analyze. Don't say things you don't want to happen. It's probably the quickest way you can get it to happen.

I'm learning so much I think my brain hurts. It's cumbersome at times, but I know this is a part of growing up.

On another note I went to see a psychic. Although I felt the information was very truthful I don't recommend it. Now that I've thought on it I don't want to find out everything that's going to happen, let alone allow myself to succumb to any means to find out.
Maybe I should just LIVE and let live.

To do is to be. I think there are a thousand proverbs in my blog. If you pay attention.
I feel like what the psychic did was allow guidance, but she did not push for me to do anything.
She told me of God, my relationships, my aura, resolutions, and my future. All for 15 dollars. Is that legal? Lol.

Something doesn't sit right in my gut.
So it isn't right.
Soooo...enough there.

I don't really wanna share too much today. Just things to highlight.
I think looking for relationships is totally a bad idea.
Some great advice I received: Guys grow up really slow. So just focus on your friendships. You'll have plenty of time to meet that guy.


So it is. And I'm happy. I have goals. I have friends. I have joy. I have GOD. I have some peace. Working on eating right.
I'm outtie<3

Decisions, decisions.

and more bloody decisions.

Life is testing me. Like so much that I have to ask myself what for? What the hell does it all mean? Am I getting this or not?

This kid still won't call. Lol the smart sensible side says fuck that kid.
Life has far too many things to offer you. He was a pit stop--a sign in passing if you will.
But apparently nothing for keeps.
I feel if someone is meant to be in my life it wouldn't be so hard to keep them close.
So my vow to myself is to let the chips fall where they may. I have imposed my will--every fiber of my being into this. Insanity yields stupidity. Move the hell on. There's a fork in the road. Let's try going left this time.

My soul is beautiful. I've been reading The Secret by Rhonda Byrne.
The universe is there to help you. All you have to do is ask and of world of opportunity suddenly is at your doorstep.
Guess I'll take an excerpt.

"When you focus your thoughts on something you want, and you hold that focus, you are in that moment summoning the mightiest power in the Universe. The law of attraction doesn't compute "don't" or "not or "no" or any other words of negation. As you speak words of negation, this is what the law of attraction is receiving:
'I don't want to spill something on this outfit.'
Meaning 'I want to spill something on this outfit and I want to continue spilling more things.'"
(Byrne, 14)

More on that later.

Just a care and share. By the way--the birthday was absolute magic.
I felt it. I still do. And I am 18. I don't care who thinks that age doesn't mean anything.
It definitely means A LOT to me. I feel blessed.