I don't know you.

I laughed tonight. I learned a ton. I watched my age creep in. I watched us grow distant. I watched my solidarity grow with each inhaling breath. Inside I see myself somewhere else. Inside I wonder if I'm screaming sometimes, but I'm not angry or scared. Maybe not screaming, just seeing how aware of transformation I am. On the surface to you I may look the same. I guess it's because you aren't inside of my body feeling my entire internal hard-wiring reform. I want to be more loving because I love even those I am not close to. And I know it's not unclear. Naivete fades. Truth sets in. I strive towards a better connection with Jah. Jah, you are it. The keeper of my dreams, my life bearer, my father. You keep my head connected to my body, and my heart aligned with truth.

Think back to the days where I blended our lives, struggling to hold on to life without all its complexities. When we stand in front of one another, do we cherish the moment, or do we watch each other from our own private realms?

You see right through nothing. And I see right through this empty feeling. Trying to fill a void that grows with each exhale.You are not mines to hold. I am done crying.