2008 is over, hence the dawn of a new chapter...
I guess.
The beginning
-->Spent with Shay and Dean really. Lol he was definitely there at midnight in spirit. <3
But on this day I realize so much. The little things I once wrapped my mind around are no longer important. I'm not interested, nor do I dwell on silly things. One thing I will give the psychic s that I have over analyzed. I need to let go more. Enjoy each moment, but not dissect it. Peace of highest importance in my life.
I have a moment to share.
Here I am on the bus stop, toes frost bitten. I just left Shayla.
Waiting. Wondering. There I realized this is life. I'm waking up.
This is your life. Take control. Stop letting things happen to you.
Ask questions. Get on the next damn bus. Lol. You'll get home.
Then I wander around trying to find a place to piss in the middle of the city...on New Years...
End up calling home. I ask for a ride. Freezing my f***ing toes off....
My dad doesn't want a damn thing to do with helping me.
He's rude...but I guess he had a point.
I found a cozy Nepalese/Indian restaurant.
This feels so relaxing.
I ordered alone. Waited for my folks.
They arrive. I grab my amazing dumplings and leave.
Minutes later...
"You need to act like you're 18. Take on your own cell phone bill. Do some shit for yourself.
Get a real job. And find your own way home. I ain't gonna be doing this shit for you for the rest of your life. I won't be there. "
I'm a daddy's girl. And sensitive. Guess on the inside my heart kinda broke again...
I know better. And I want to leave here badly...
Lol guess that's motivation.
My goal, my destination this year is to reach far beyond the minimal.
Don't just take what is handed to you. Go after what you want. Make life happen. Don't hold your feelings in. Spread the love. Kiss deeper. Laugh louder. Play harder. Release everything. Change is what makes life, life. Remember, guys will be there. Make TIME for what your really want. Remember temptation. Enjoy youth, but never act foolishly. Make each moment count. Passionately. Intensely. Always reflect.
I love you more than ever. I love myself more than ever. I am more beautiful than I ever was.
Wisdom is sexy. Spirituality is sexy. Carpe diem is my true fetish. Hence each day is better than the day before it.
FIN.
1 comment:
aaaaaah :) this entry really made me feel at ease. It's obvious you just gained at least 5 more experience points. I'm happy for you - all i can say this that I hope I can keep up, no time to be crabby I need to do more than before this year as well.
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