So I can wake up early...

So today I learned a valuable lesson.
yes, I know this sounds cute. I know it's not quite blogger appropriate either.
However, I feel crummy, and I prayed to be forgiven and I need to talk. I guess to myself
since I can't bring myself to call anyone right now.

I saw the red moon at 3:00 AM. I just finished retwisting my dreads.
I worked out last night. My body felt great. I felt strong, powerful, and well
prepared. After finishing my locs, I had a cool sip of water and lay down in front of the space heater, hoping to wake at 6:00 AM with dry locs. Yes 6:00 AM. 6:10 to be exact. But guess what happened instead?

I awoke by natural sunlight. My head swam as I glanced over to my amber yellow/orange curtain to realize: The sun is already up. HOLY .... I scooted my butt off the bed dashing over to the computer to confirm. Yes, this had never happened to me before. I woke up late for my first day at my new job. Haha. I think it is a great lesson to me. Get a new frikkin real alarm clock, no matter how ugly it is, as long as it works. I wanted to scream as I called my employer and plead for forgiveness. Why was this happening?

Well part of me is glad it is day one and not day 2. *deep sigh*
I wanted someone to understand me. To hug me. To say, baby, it's gonna be okay.
You'll get them next time like you always do.
More than anything, I need to. Someone has to do it, and I have to commit myself to completing
things.

Aren't you glad I learn fast? Well I already got a new real alarm clock to replace my cellphone in case it didn't go off ages ago. But I got it more out of cuteness than necessity.
Talk about a way to learn. My chest is a little tight from worry. I have to let this go.
Breathe. Stretch. Release. Forgive myself. I can't do that while typing either.